More on Lost

well...some things i had to think about last night while watching lost:

Locke had to kill his father
Memories of his terrible father crippled him (in his case not just metaphorically but literally). he's been set free on the island...but the "old man" comes back from time to time...he no longer has the power he once had...instead, he (the old man) is bound up, chained up and then held (gagged) in the brig of a old slaving ship (which locke pointed out to sawyer).

Locke needed sawyer's "help" to kill the old man.
locke cannot kill him by himself...he may want to, he may need to, he may know that it is right...but he is still powerless. he needs the man who can relate to and identify with him to do it for him. he needs the man who has felt the same pain as he felt and who has the ability to do it to kill his father for him.

Locke in the Supermarket

"i'm all lost in the supermarket
i can no longer shop happily
i came here for that special offer
a guaranteed personality

i wasn't born as much as i fell out
no one seemed to notice me
we had a hedge back home in the suburbs
over which i never could see

i heard the people who lived on the ceiling
scream and fight most scarily
hearing that noise was my first ever feeling
that's how it's been all around me

i'm all tuned in i see all the programs
i save coupons from packets of tea
i have my giant hit discotech album
i empty a bottle, i feel a bit free

the kids in the hall and the pipes in the wall
make noises to keep me company
long distance callers make long distance calls
and the silence makes me lonely"

from "lost in the supermarket" by the clash

if you've ever wondered what in the world you are doing here on earth, this is a song for you. it has it all...existential angst, post-modern pessimism, hopelessness, helplessness...

yet (at least for me) listening to it is an enriching experience, especially when i was in my late teens and early 20's...someone else felt the same as me! and they said it in a way that i never would thought of! brilliant!

locke was lost in the supermarket last night.

he was challenged to find his purpose; and to find it, the "old man" had to die. locke, however, couldn't bring himself to off his own father, even tho he hated him.

he feels he is destined for some sort of greatness...he is led to believe that he is special and that he knows things that no one else knows...but there is this...

disconnect.

his life does not match up to what he wants it to be...he is, truly, lost.

themes of alienation and confusion have always resinated with me. they still do. while it is a pleasure to not have to suffer thru the angst of not knowing why i am here on earth and what my life is all about, i still love the mystery of a life unfolding.

while the details of God's plan for our lives are revealed by Him only when He desires them to be, the purpose, hope and meaning that comes from knowing He does have a plan for us dispels any existential or post-modern drama we may want to put ourselves thru.