Shadowbox the Apocalypse...Again.

"We shadowdance the silent war within.
The shadowdance, it never ends...
Never ends, never ends.
Shadowboxing the Apocalypse, yet again...
Yet again.
Shadowboxing the Apocalypse, And wandering the land. "

many xians fight a (seemingly) never ending battle...they think it's against sin or against the devil or against evil forces or against temptation...or even against God.

but they really are only fighting a battle against themselves. get a mental picture of the song above...

shadowboxing is sparring (as in boxing) with yourself...the apocalypse (in this song) refers to a "great and catylclismic battle"...it's a senseless battle...and to top it off, we are only fighting against ourselves.

we're not good enough.
we keep messing up.
we willingly choose our own way.
we fail.
we feel like we fail even worse than we do.
we let ourselves down and if we let ourselves down, oh how we must let God down...
He's disappointed with us.
He wouldn't love us.
why would He? why should He?
i wouldn't.

true.
true.
true.
true.
true.
true.
true-ish.
false.
false.
and here's the big problem. true.

we wouldn't love and forgive us. we can't. we don't know how.
and so we anthropomorphise God. huh? we attribute human characteristics to One who is beyond humaness.

children of God...stop shadowboxing the apocalypse. take a long bath and imagine you are in the tub of God's great forgiveness.

then every day this week tell yourself 1440 times a day (that's once per minute) that you are a child of God and that He has taken all of your sin from you.

put down the gloves and enjoy God.